My mind is taking over my life and destroying it....

I have always had trouble with my mind from as far back as i can remember into my early teens which started of with seeing things that weren't there and hearing things that didn't exist which was either delusion or another sense picking up things but it terrified me as a child and i went to a Councillor for it but they could not help me as i didn't know the problem except that i thought someone was going to kill me... I can never remember being truly happy within myself and now im coming up soon for 30 and in the last two years my mental health has got severely worse, i have severe paranoia, i get anxious quite often over different things, i become very delusional and create things in my head that aren't even happening, my mind is so obsessive over one thing and i will literally think about one negative thing over and over for days and days if not weeks... i wake up everyday not feeling happy and i am just at my wits end... Ive had multiple spiritual healing sessions which has resolved certain things, i am now vegetarian from this year, ive fasted, i drink distilled waters to cleanse my body, i try to meditate but ive only succeeded a few times, i practice uropathy, i drink raw juices almost everyday and i am practicing other cleanses recently to purify the inside of my body.... i am trying everything i know i can do to try and resolve this issues and let go but im finding it near on impossible... is the only option pharmaceuticals to numb my mind? as it seems that way at times... any help or advice from someone who knows anything about this sort of thing or has expierenced it first hand please reply.. Tweet