Finally putting the pieces all together.

I'm so glad I found this forum and finally started accepting the fact that I could have Lyme disease. I think I may finally be on the right track.

I just realized that last year, around Easter, I was in a great deal of pain, brain fog, fatigue etc. I was so miserable that I was convinced that the physical pain had to be emotionally rooted, so I attended a spiritual retreat. About a week after the retreat I was feeling better.... thinking "it WAS emotionally rooted! I'm healed!!!" I was ready to shout my testimony from the rooftops!

In November of last year, I had another flair up. I was discouraged, thinking I was letting my emotions get the best of me again and sought the help of some healers who did a little counseling and hands on healing. I felt a little better at that time, but still not great. Starting to feel like a failure for allowing the emotional issues to drag me into a relapse in physical symptoms (because of course no doctor can find anything physically wrong with me.)

Now, its almost Easter again and I'm having a SEVERE flair up of symptoms. Here we go again... and I'm just now starting to put the pieces of this puzzle together.

I've also been tracking monthly flair ups that correspond with the full moon. The monthly flair ups usually send me reaching for some new supplement, dietary program, yoga practice or something of that sort. When the flair up passes, I think "Wow, that new supplement is really working!" Only to get knocked flat on my butt less than a month later and the cycle starts all over again...

This cyclical relapse of symptoms is only indicative of Lyme. Or it really is all in my head, but why the ongoing cycle and why at Easter, Thanksgiving and full moon?

I guess its time to face it and just start Lyme treatment whether I like it or not? Does this make sense?