I cheat all the time now and kill myself but I can't stop...

gluten intolerance. its a hell i cant live with.

about 2-3 years ago i started getting awful digestive ailments and slowly learned that avoiding gluten relieved my symptoms. at first it was really really hard. then i slowly found the GF breads, the pastas, etcetc. even the processed frozen foods like amys, glutino and etc brands made life a little better (and brought me back to my happy processed food lifestyle).

i had been doing ok living like this for a few years.. then sometime last summer... i took a vacation. during the vacation the temptation to just say 'f***it' and eat whatever i want and throw celiac/gluten intolerance to the wind overcame me. i found that woah... i could actually tolerate things like, a snickers bar! many carls jr meals! a few drinks at a bar! (even a beer?!) etcetc. the list kept growing. sure... i suffered a bit of digestive stomache pains after but ultimately... i did 'o k'... and this ruined me.

ever since this vacation i have continued to 'cheat' and i cant stop myself. i eat fast food all the time again. i grew up with the cheap unhealthy american fast food diet and becoming gluten intolerant has crippled my psychilogical cravings of food. now that i cheated and didnt utterly die, i cant help eating crappy food that continues to kill me. i wonder if anyone else has gone through a similar regression back to gluten addiction after going back?

the convenience factor is what mostly kills me. also the price... i can buy a low carb gluten free burger at carls for several bucks. or i can go to somewhere like chipotle and get a salad for 7. the carls kinda tastes better than the organic chipotle, its also closer, and its cheaper. i cant resist. i cheat with snickers all the time now and gmos have made their way back as a staple of my diet. *sigh* with my wide array of health ailments i guess im just reaching out to death with open arms. what can i do to fix myself? anyone else been stuck here? thanks for reading or any suggestions. i dont think ill ever figure out a solution Tweet