If anyone is having a difficult time to confess or pray with heart it will come..the more you pray the more blessed you are, the more graces and understanding.
The recommended readings for those as well as myself are from the precious blood of Jesus ..org..or .com
Here you will find many answers as well and forgiveness for grave sins that are difficult to let go.
Always make the sign of cross with strong contemplation, do not make it in haste..many online sources of the correct signing of the cross and history.
Making the sign of the cross is so powerful and the Eucharist.