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My wife and I have had problems in marriage mostly due to (and she accepts this) her not "being there" for me emotionally.

Both of us have been overweight for our entire marriage. I have lost my weight she is still over 200 pounds.

I fell for another woman hard and had an affair. During which time I experienced everything I ever wanted in another woman sexually and the problem is that now I have absolutely no interest in my wife at all.

Now, I never knew this could mean so much to me because I dont think I ever pursued woman like her due to my own self image being overweight. (I have lost well over 100 lbs.)

I am hopeful that as my wife works on some personality issues and loses the weight I will feel differently but my "girlfriend" if you will, has everything I want to an absolute extreme. I desire her.

A couple traits physically would not change even with weight loss. Am I just oversensitive to this and need to stop this affair, which has pretty much ended anyway even though my desire is still strong and I dont want to go without as I am young and want to enjoy this aspect of life. It means more to me than I expected and its not just the "sex". It impacts my life, feelings and attitude all for the better. I dont want to let it go. Tweet