ok-I understand better now. My brother told me not to call him for help, a pastor called me a burden, two women said I wasn't healed because i must have some great sin in my life, about the same time two other women accused me of having a demon. Their point of view seeme to be that if God choses not to heal me-itsgot to be my fault. I will wait on the Lord maybe not knowing why, but in my feeble way trusting Him.