Oh wow, that sounds serious. A year is a long time with a leg that won't get you to where you need to go. Asking God to give you wisdom to heal is so important. We will all pray for your healing and your mind to be relieved of wondering where God is in all of this that you are going through. Well, I'm glad you are here with us and sharing. Thank goodness for the internet. It lets us reach out and feel connected when we can't connect.
I know right now I feel disconnected because I have been away from home for too long. Searching for ideas for healing are a good way to pass the time....so is searching for the Lord's comfort.