Re: I'm finding it hard too keep going with this malodour fbo!!

I understand what you are going through. I have completely lost faith in any God. Its said that God will not put you through more than you can handle. It's also clearly stated that you are supposed to glorify God and bring praise to his.

How can I be effective at spreading his love and word when I am filled with something that makes people not want to be around me? Something I have 0 control over? That to me does not sound like a loving God nor one that cares about me.

If God will never put more on my plate than I can handle how come I think of suicide more often then I pray to him these days? I've prayed and reached out so many times asking for him to reveal himself to me because I simply did not feel his presence and I've not felt a thing in so long.

Despite all my negative talk I truly hope that you heal yourself. While I may not believe in God anymore I do believe that you can find answers on your own.

Have you seen a doctor? Have you tried eliminating certain food groups? Maybe you have some form of IBS and certain foods cause you trouble?

I believe that is a large cause of my BO. I have cut out lactose and things seemed to have improved drastically.