Re: Weekend from hell

Applesauce19, I am truly, truly sorry for what you've experienced.  It WAS the weekend from Hell.

Not to excuse your mother's actions, but she is living in what is called, "denial."  She knows the truth, she knows that she cannot change the truth, and she also knows that ignoring the truth has caused the "bad person" to be able to harm other people.  Denial is very ugly and it causes people to make very stupid choices and decisions. 

What YOU are experiencing is likely Post Traumatic Stress.  You've had a terrible experience, you haven't been "allowed" to talk about it, no action was ever taken to resolve what was done to you, and it's too much for anyone to handle.  PLEASE, if you have any services available where you live, seek out some counseling therapy.  Asking for counseling does not - does not - mean that we are crazy or that something is wrong with us!  It means that we do not have the tools and information on how to manage what we're experiencing.

If we have a water pipe break, we call a plumber.  If there's a leak in our roof, we call a roofer.  If we don't have the tools and information to manage Post Traumatic Stress, we contact someone who DOES.

My brightest healing blessings to you, Applesauce19.  If you were in front of me, I would hold you tight and tell you that you are valuable and precious to this Universe and that you deserve (DESERVE) unconditional love and support.