Re: HELP! How I screwed myself up... literally -.-
Ashwagandha is the most potent libido enhancer I ever came across. It made me grow a beard.
If you are indeed beginning to exhibit signs of chronic fatigue, than there are of course infections, nutrition, metabolism, emotional, and physiological concerns.
The exercise is a good thing, because you are going to need to keep doing it at all costs.
Chronic-Fatigue-Syndrome really sets in on those who are already weak and tired. Exercise is desperately needed to balance the bodies energy flow through the meridians and to keep the blood properly circulated throughout the blood.
The blood has to be circulated and well fed with proper nutrition, herbs, and correct thinking patterns. Shame, guilt, and dread of your own body and urges is not going to help your body heal.
All emotional issues strain the immune system, the blood, and the liver. This leads to endless complaints and diseases. And we live in a world that is full of pollution, angry people, and dangerous medications, poor water quality, and dangerous new diseases. With such challenges, your immune system needs as much mind over matter as possible to help combat the extra burden. Yoga, tai-chi, meditation, acupuncture, saunas, chiropractors, herbal tinctures, healthy relationships, friends and a support network, a sense of humor, lots of raw fruit and vegetable, and a great deal of sunlight and exercise are the only way you will ever be able to really prevent illness.
Self dread, negative thoughts, and harsh acidic liver and kidney toxic western medicine will negatively affect your health.
You can learn more about taking care of the blood and the detoxification systems of the body by reading many forums on curezone, but I suggest you read Ask Barefoot Herbalist, and read the 108 book. You can learn more about herbs and infection, and how liver flushes, herbs, and distilled water and fasting can help repair your body and fight off the infections/depression/illness.
If you have any kind of concerns about your gender and sexuality it could perhaps be a result of pre-natal exposure. There are pollutants called endocrine disruptors that are known to affect hormones in the developing fetus.
HOWEVER, know, that you are what you are, you cannot call it good or bad. It is just as it is, and if you choose to love yourself and live at peace with yourself and take the above users comments to constructively manage you sexuality it will help you tremendously throughout life.
I too have always had strong libido urges, though never complained- because I am a male. But, it can be a burden in the wrong situation and I can sympathize.
Often beneath the strong libido, is the need for stronger meaningful connections to people. With a type A personality, you are inclined towards being a leader of sorts or a role model for people. Consequently, you have a lot of electrical raw energy that has not been channeled into a tangible forum.
You can look into creative endeavors and career interests. But you will also want to look into strong relationships with other people. Do not make the mistake of pushing any worthy man away- though at your age you are going to have a while to find a good one. Behind pure lust, there are need for strong real love and strong real love is one of the best parts of life. You do not want to be without it.