I am so very sorry that happened to you. that can scar you for life and I am sure it has. A coworker who was purposely mean to me would put up air freshers. When she first did it - it hurt so bad that I left the office and contemplated walking in front of a moving car - obviously I didn't...but the weirdest thing happened that same day....a random stranger who I was passing on the street, just stopped me and told me that I was beautiful. it had to be angel of God. I literally broke down in tears after that. stay strong.