You have the patience of Job compared to me. I have the passion but no patience. I had a dear friend use the word "bitter" to describe a similar personal situation.
I applied it to myself and I came up with
"bitter patience".... A passion of bitterness is not something I care to pass along to others.
I hope for God to help me with that, as I learn new ways of leaving it at the feet of Jesus. Curezone has been a blessing that at times seemed like a curse to me. I have learned alot about people and myself by being here. I have seen the good, the bad, and the ugly side of things.... but I do not wish to leave here leaving a bitter taste in anyone's mouth.....especially not God's.
Give it some thought and of course...prayer. If you do decide to, I wanted you to know that I don't speak in tongues and I know that some believe that is evidence of someone having the Holy Spirit. My close friends are Assembly of God but they do not believe that everyone has that gift but still consider me part of the Family of God. Their pastor laid hands on me, prayed and anointed my head with oil and it was a very spiritual/healing experience. I just thought I would share that.