Shaving since I was 8

I am a 38 year old woman and this has taken 30 years to even attempt to talk to somebody about this.
When I was 8 years old a boy at school made a comment to me that I had dark hairs at the side of my face. Well I went straight home and got my dads electric razor and shaved my entire face and neck. I cannot remember if I had any visible hairs anywhere else.
Since then, every single day of my life involves around me shaving twice a day, sometimes 3. It is so severe now as the shaving has made it really prominent. I am desperate for someone to help, as I cannot use wax or hair removal cream as it is really tough. I live with my boyfriend and he has no idea. Yet sometimes he will say to me that I have a rash on my neck or upper lip. I always put it down to just having an reaction to new shower gel or moisturiser.
I am rock bottom now. As I have got older my biggest fear in life is to be admitted to hospital, where I am not able bodied to be able to shave my face. I wish with all my heart I can turn back the clock. I also wish that someone hears me on here as after 30 years I still get very depressed about it.

I hope that someone understands and knows what I can do to change the last 30 years of my life. Tweet