Re: i need help..

You say that you "don't believe his words anymore" yet, you "love" him SO much that you're ready to place cameras to spy on this person?!

It's called "codependency" when we weave our whole world around another human being. This isn't "love" that you're describing, at all - it's ownership, control, and obsession. Finding his job for him so that you work in the same building? Think about that for a moment - YOU are securing a position for another adult so that you will be able to better monitor his activities.

You may want to consider counseling to sort out why you chose this type of person in the first place and how to free yourself of this extremely unhealthy obsession. This is something that has the potential for some very serious consequences and NONE of them are positive or healthy. Please, take a moment to read your own words and consider where you're heading in this very dangerous relationship.

Brightest blessings to you.