Wow...hi...ummm...this is a site where people are often times ill...and this is how you are talking??....I mean...ok..I can understand and sympathize with you a bit..but you are barking up a bit of a wrong tree by posting this here...
at least too bad for you that I read this post...I am the same age as you...and instead of being lucky enough to have been in the position of care giving for others and being what I would trust is fairly good health for yourself....meaning you do have plenty of available opportunities to take part in life through decisions you want to make for yourself..I ...and I can only imagine a number of other people to come across what you have written can't do much except to say...get over it...bc myself my story is that since turning a teenager I fight everyday in every way to just stay alive...so...yes...be sad and sorry and that's ok...but you can change places with me or many of us on here any day..I would make that deal...