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Hi, I am new here but not new to inner child work. I have been a member of ACA for three or four years (vagueness part of my condition). However, the fellowship is in unbelievable disarray due to emotional crimes and dysfunction, like knocking down inner child work and claims that Alanon and CoDA principles are the substance of THIS one and so on. Therefore I'm glad this forum exists and that it will be useful to me in continuing my recovery.
On most days, I am unable to carry out my adult responsibilities (or privileges, for that matter). It's completely nauseating. My four years of recovery have been focused on accepting the past and coming out of denial. I continue to do that, but I am also now ready to move on to accepting adulthood (btw -- I'm 50!!!!) but as a child of dysfunctional parenting, I need support. In ACA we know support comes from a personal higher power, so I don't expect advice. I only hope that this forum is a safe place so I can contact my HP.
Currently I am struggling to send back a non working printer for which I already got a replacement, as well as other things. However I have decided the printer is the first priority -- something which in itself was a struggle. Anyway, the company has been dysfunctional, giving me mixed messages -- ah, how like my family! And the penalty for not guessing right (about the most banal things) was severe. This is the source of the anxiety I feel about everything, and that I need a safe place to work out as it's expressed in my daily functioning. I am just learning how to be my own loving parent. I wrote a letter to my inner chid about it, agreeing that the company has been stupid. I can't quite bring myself to tell her that I will not be liable for the printer though.