Having problems! (plus edit)

Hi All,

Okay the last couple of days...just have not been good. I'm trying to figure things out. All this week has been juicing and some raw food. juicing almost 3 quarts daily. Doing CE's almost every other day, high enemas twice this week (implanted with Superfood and slippery elm, what I had on hand). Always feeling really gassy and full and crampy. Wrapping my ankles and legs everynight with castor oil and deep tissue or bfc oil. Taking my tinctures also.

Also, feeling like I was coming down with a cold, did a lot of echinacea. Then seem to be fighting yeast, either it coming out, or it getting worse, not sure which. Also taking the colon formulas for the last week and a half- 2 weeks. I added extra charcoal in a day and a half ago, and yesterday I had the most miserable day:( I got constipated, the weather has been very windy and rainy lately, unpredictably so- and went from being a heat wave to being almost freezing cold overnight. I didn't walk as much the last few days for that reason, along with trying to rest the ankle. Finally yesterday, I'd promised to take my brother to see a movie.

I was naseous once there (in general I have little stamina or energy) I was freezing cold, and hadn't had very much to eat besides my superfood, slippery elm, some BSM and ACV and a few tinctures. I just couldn't eat, even though I'd made a smoothie and brought it with me. I felt like everything in my gut was stuck. I took two IF1s at the theatre, helped a bit with the stuck feeling but not much.

We got home, and I tried to drink some of my smoothie, it was mostly dandelion, and was just not going down. I was crying in the car on the way back home also, I was just feeling so awful, and so weak and so gross. I also notice maybe because of candida, that the rainy weather pretty much 'paralyzes' me, like I just can't make myself move.

Anyway, so I couldn't make myself do anything. Not even an enema or a CE. I just sat in a chair and couldn't move! This has happened before. I feel like my brain has shut down, I cannot make myself do anything- and I don't want to do anything. I believe it is physical- I know, someone is goint to tell me, 'oh you need to do EFT for this'- but I know this is physical. I really feel like I'm not getting everything I need- besides struggling so much in my daily life- I mean like in terms of nutrition. I really don't know anymore how much else I can do, or what I can do at this point.

Finally, at supper, I was going to eat anything. I don't think I was hungry, but I think I was starving for mutrients. I had had plenty of superfood and slippery elm already. I was out of veggies, except carrots, and had had a few during the day. I finally ended up blending a can of pineapple with my superfood, slippery elm and some ginger, garlic, coconut oil, flax seed to make like a smoothie. (edit, I also had some dried apricots and raisins, maybe 1/2 cup). It was ok, but I still felt like hell. I couldn't even take a shower or make myself go to bed. I finally (and regretfully) ate something I've never had in a long time- which was a can of mushroom soup. I don't know why I did that. I promptly took some IF2, made myself do a Coffee-Enema at midnight, and then went to bed at 2 am , exhausted.

I woke up with severe lower back pain, chest and lymph congestion, sore throat, nasal pressure, a disoriented feeling and general pain. My gut is all full and crampy. I feel like I have been fighting a cold or detoxing or both. Basically, I feel like hell:(

In general I have been experimenting with the fermented foods too, and it's been challenging. I tried to make water kefir last week, and it turned out ok. I made a batch on the weekend, that quickly turned into like vinegar- it was not drinkeable, and I had to throw it out. I made another batch two nights ago, which I just checked, and one bottle is very fizzy and tastes like beer. The other is milder, and less fizzy. I just put both in the fridge, but am concerned by the one that tastes like beer! Is it ok to drink?

I also made sauerkraut this week, and am just starting on alfalfa spouts. It is my first time in a long time doing both- and it seems like I am scared to screw everything up- I try to read the instructions over and over, but my memory is not good, and I often makde mistakes.

I also bought some more fish oil this week, its the one from Natural Factors which Uny recommends, but they seemed to have changed the formula. The one I just got has an enteric coating and is almost 2x the dose, so instead of taking 2 capsules a day, I only take one. Is this ok?

Anyway, I don't know where to go from here. I always feel like I give it my all for like a week or so, I run into so many issues, or my body can't keep up with what's happening-or I just feel like this is not going to work- like I'm spending way too much energy and not reaping or recouperating enough to continue. Even making another order for anything I need is completely daunting. Like I know I'd like to get some herbs and start tincturing but I can't even bring myself to organize this. Also, money is tight, so I'm always trying to think of what I most desperately need. Like I need a Coffee-Enema bucket, aloe vera gel, echinacea and milk thistle, a rebounder, jars, etc etc...and I don't know which is the most important thing to fucos on! You know what I mean?

I'm only writing all of this down, because in my real everyday life, I honestly feel like I'm going crazy. And I keep it all to myself. And I am just not able to cope. I have one friend who hears me collapse every week or so on the phone, and it is completely overwhelming for him and for me. He never says anything but being supportive, but I just can't handle it anymore.

I don't know what anyone can say to me at this point. I'd love to just sit here, calmly and juice fast, almost that and maybe nothing else. But I don't know if I can even get through that. I just don't know. I seem to have too many symptoms and issues.

I'm sorry for rambling so much. Maybe someone has some suggestions that would make sense to me.

Thank you,

Teresa.