i want to be better..help

i have been "sick" for a good 9 mos now. all my ailments are growing daily.. i belive they are due to stress at first and fear of my own neglect to self love, My symptoms are growing more severe each passing day. i fear a lung and/or heart disease due to years of neglect and destructiom. i am not yet 40 yrs old and feel like i am 65+. i am so afraid. what can i do? i need ur help and ur prayers. i want to feeel better. i want to feel whole, complete. i am trying to find this thru prayer and Jesus. i have drifted for far too long. i am asking for ur prayer and guidance.. help.. God bless u all Tweet