35 Days

35 days now

The healing crisis has been consistent since 31.8 days and the detox is quite unpleasant.  The nausia has increased and i have to say that i'm not liking it even a little bit and it's hard to get comfortable even laying down. I wish i could sleep a lot more, but it's been very difficult to fall asleep and generally i'll get 6 hours each day if i'm lucky.

The bright shining light here where this healing crisis is concerned is that i know something very important is happening within my body. : )

On one level i am ready to break the fast, but on a much more important level i know i need to wait until i emerge through this crisis, however long this may be, as breaking a fast in mid crisis is a notoriously bad plan (with the rare exception of nutrient depletion forcing the issue) and it is essential to allow the body to finish dealing with this current situation before breaking.

It will be interesting to see how many more days the crisis will persist and i will likely take advantage of the first day of feeling good to break the fast. This could turn out to be as soon as 35.5 days (which seems unlikely), it might be 40 days or it may be even longer.

I will then hopefully accomplish what is left of my goals in the next fast, perhaps in another 2 or 3 months, the goals once again being a completely healed heart, the elimination of all toxemia, and the return of genuine hunger, all of which now seem unlikely to be achieved this time around, though still not impossible : ).