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First of all, a big thanks to Invincible and Inner Calm for pointing me in the right direction where reading materials are concerned. I have found that both Abraham-Hicks and Neville Goddard have resonated more with me than "The Secret" ever did.

I've slowly read through some of the above mentioned materials. Slowly, because I want to be sure to fully digest what I'm reading. If I read too fast, not as much stays with me.

As a result I now keep an appreciation diary, each day writing what I appreciated that day. Most of it is the same---things I've taken for granted but shouldn't be taking for granted. Some days things occur be they big or small that leave me feeling appreciative.

Each morning, when I first awaken, I meditate on improving my health. Of course, I help things along by eating properly and exercising regularly. I appreciate that my IBS-D is now under control which was always an important component as part of my manifestation of a move to my favorite city. Also, I tell myself that today I will think positively and find things to appreciate as I go about my day.

Everyday I tell the Universe that I am manifesting my move and the money necessary to make it happen. I've even told the Universe that I'm open to receiving any message regarding this as long as it is clear with no ambiguity.

Well...a couple of months ago something totally unexpected and wonderful happened not long after I set to work on manifesting my move. I had a friend who was intuitive who, a few years back, encouraged me to get back to writing. You see, ever since I learned to write, I knew I enjoyed doing so. Growing up, without going into details, I never had the self-confidence or self-esteem to pursue it. As a teen, once when I wrote a letter to a friend and attempted to inject some humor into it, she wrote back and was clearly angry and insulted. I wrote back and told her that I meant no harm. For years after that, I always held back and censored what I wrote. Fast forward to a few years ago, when my intuitive friend encouraged to once again write and not censor myself. I next discovered a website that I enjoyed adding content to on a volunteer basis. This website recognized my contributions. Meanwhile, a couple of years ago, intuitive friend told me that she saw a writing job just falling into my lap. She said it wouldn't be much of a job, it would pay very little. She said that I would take it and eventually it would lead to better things.

Fast forward to a couple of months ago. Due to my contributions on the above mentioned website, I was contacted by yet another website offering me a small job contributing some content to their blog. It would pay a small amount of money but I would have a byline and my bio on that website. After some back and forth with them, I agreed to do it. What was bittersweet about this was that the intuitive friend has not been in touch for months. Three years ago, she got in a whirlwind courtship with a guy who took a job overseas. While he was there, she moved to his hometown to wait for him, and the plan was that they would marry. While he was overseas, he sent her a "Dear John" email. Long story short, last time I talked to her she said that she didn't call me because I reminded her of when they were dating! Too bad---how I would have loved to tell her that her prediction was spot on!

Now...here's where things currently stand with the writing job. A month ago, I was contacted and told that they wouldn't need any more entries for 2 weeks. They were happy with what I contributed but their editors had other things to do. It's now been a month with no word from them. I made the mistake of looking at the site---a mistake because I saw others had contributed to the section where I had previously.

Since I've been doing LOA readings and I've been somewhat troubled about this, I talked this out with myself (when I was alone LOL). I asked myself why I was so troubled. The answer was that I felt the site was less than honest with me regarding my contributions. Then I told myself that I had no control over what they did or didn't do. I told myself that this job was a gift that fell into my lap. Also, for the first time in my life, I knew what it was like to have a paying job that wasn't soul-crushing. Interestingly, since I was a kid, when I pictured myself writing, I was always happy. But I digress---I then told myself that this job came to me for a reason. Then the light bulb moment---what was the reason?---The reason was to get me that breakthrough---it got my foot into the door, so to speak. Now, should I find another writing job that appeals to me, I now have (limited as it is) writing resume. With that revelation, I was able to make peace with myself.

Right now, I'm not putting my energies into manifesting another writing job. Instead, my energies are being put into manifesting three things; 1) Improved health; 2) A move to my favorite city; and 3) The money to not only make the move possible but to make my life in my favorite city as pleasant and as enjoyable as possible.

All that said, my husband tends to live in lack. He makes comments such as this ---For example, I was going grocery shopping and ask him if there was anything else he wanted. He said "a bag of money". Another day, I mentioned that a money cat walked through our yard, he said "Did it bring any money with it?" I just laughed it all off and told him to think positively. I may have made a tiny breakthrough with him. Yesterday, we were at a mall. When we walked through a store, I explained how keeping X amount of money in your wallet and walking around a store, seeing what you could buy with X dollars and mentally spending that money helps. He thought about it and said, we really don't have to live in lack! Yes!

Well...anyway...if you've made it through this post, I thank you and am appreciative. Any thoughts/advice is certainly welcome. Thank you again! Tweet