I know it could be traumatic, but for me personally, I need those answers, for the gaps I have. I think also it will help me to fulfill my mission here on earth. I know it does involved some kind of earth change or future war, as they have shown me this scenario over and over. But maybe if I "remember" everything, then I will remember my mission. I know I have had at least one encounter with the "positive" ones so to speak, but am unsure about the bad guys, though from the dreams I am shown, I am sure I have. If I could afford it, I would do it in a heartbeat.