Hey,
Your story is very unique. If you haven't been having bowel movements you are building up a lot of toxic wastes in your intestines that is probably being reabsorbed into your body and that's why you're having the problems that you are having. I don't think that you are going to find the kind of help that you need on the forum. You need to see a health care professional. And, don't take this the wrong way please, but, holding your BM in as a habit is not a physical problem. That has more to do with your attitudes and beliefs. A regular family practitioner may not be the best person to help you with that. However, they may be able to direct you to someone who is better qualified to explore why you feel the need to do that. I wish you the best in your search for answers.