I do think you've left the prep a bit too late. You are uncertain, looking for answers, solutions and you have only two weeks to go till birth.
It seems you want to do this alone. You prefer no help, support.
I think it would be unfair to put this responsibility on anyone, even on your mother, with no immediate medical help available, if needed.
I wish you and baby all the best, but would not do it, especially for my new baby's sake without knowledgeable people around, at wherever, hospital or home.