its an odd thing, why things click only at certain times, for certain people. I probably saw your posts for two years, but nothing registered. I guess the brain can only handle so much new info at one time. my head is spinning these days, its very hard to stay on top of things. seems like you have to reach a certain critical mass of knowlege and experience before things start to make sense. or something like that anyway. or else its all a matter of what the higher self is ready to reveal.