Re: Momo and New Moon! good memories!!!
Hi Chaya,
I'm glad that you smiled at the new moon thingie. Smiling is healthy, and happy! The moon cycles are both crazy and wonderful at the same time. Who ever thought that Gods creation could be so full of meaning or even helpful to we humble humans?
Today was quiet, slower, and I was full of thoughts.
Several years ago, I suffered from a breakdown. It was bad enough, my mother, moved in-to my home, to help me get along. No body recognized what my problem was, so I wasn't diagnosed, and for nearly a year, we all suffered greatly. They must've been in denial too.
I could not understand why I was going through all this sadness, feeling so empty. Why did this happen? I want to be myself again. Each day I struggled to be good, to fill my thoughts with good things, to make an effort to always have good words to share with family/friends, no comfort came. Continually I tried to make good choices.
I felt dislocated in my life, always empty. I kept crying, and praying for help. So I could get back to my old self. No answers ever came. Going back to my ole self? Bad idea!
One day, while forcing myself to do normal daily work, it was very quiet, and a strong thought came to me. I could not go back to my old way of life. It had to change, I was going to be different now. Emptiness would go away in time. I felt empty because all of the bad stuff had left me and had left a hole. There was room, finally for new goodness to move into me. So, at that moment I knew...
My life would become normal again.
A new normal.
And, that is what lies ahead for you too, each time you think of a ciggie, just remember, 'a new normal'.
Happy New Year! momo