Re: very ill + PS

I haven't been following your story, as I'm kind of new to this forum, but from what I gather, you are coming off some pharmaceuticals? I don't know your history at all, and if you are alone through this, I think if it were me I would be concerned about being so sick all by myself (you live alone?), but I wanted to add my 2 cents about drug withdrawal if that's what you're going through.

About 15 or more years ago, I had a miserable 2 weeks when I stopped all the painkillers, sleeping pills and "low dose" antidepressants I was taking being prescribed by a prestigious "headache clinic" I wish I'd never gone to because I know I'm still suffering the effects despite a lot of cleansing. (My liver never completely recovered, but I still have hope.) That was a hellish couple of weeks and a slow climb out of the most extreme damage. I had major anxiety, vomiting, dry heaves, salivating, felt like a fist in my gut 24/7, couldn't sleep, sweating, hot and cold, shaking, spent the day either pacing, hunched over the toilet or in bed. I knew nothing at the time about natural healing, proper diet, etc., and I remember the only foods I could (sometimes) keep down - feeling like they were calming my stomach somehow - were melons and whole milk - UGH. I honestly thought I was going do die.

At some level I knew what was going on, but I couldn't admit to myself or anyone at the time that I was in heavy drug withdrawal, that I'd done that to myself, and that I was an addict cleaning up. The drugs "worked" at first to control the chronic headaches and help me sleep, but I became dependent on them, lost faith in my ability to heal anything on my own, or in my ability to handle pain, and eventually it made me much worse on more levels than just the headaches. By the time I realized my blood was probably like a chemical sewer and I was killing myself, I was really sick and toxic, and getting off everything at once was hell on earth. (I should also mention that I was not taking this stuff nearly at the levels you hear about on some of the talk shows - like the stressed out suburban moms taking 20 or 30 Vicodin a day, nothing like that - I don't even know how that isn't deadly, but it was still very addicting and toxic to my own physiology.) I was seriously suffering for at least 2 weeks after going off them. Had I known more about detoxification and supportive cleansing protocols, herbs, etc., and had some guidance, it might have been easier, but I just basically jonesed cold turkey through all of it. Thankfully I had an understanding employer and was living with my parents at the time, so I wasn't alone and had some help.

Anyway, I have no idea what's going on with you physically, what your state of health has been in the past, whether what you're experiencing is something new and happening right after getting off pharmaceuticals, but if you think it's withdrawal, or you've been checked out by a physician who says you're not in a serious medical crisis, and you've got similar symptoms to what I had shortly after stopping addicting pharmaceuticals... I just wanted to say that it sounds really familiar as something that might happen when you're detoxing drugs, and if that's the case, my input is that you get some support from family or friends if you possibly can, and be prepared to go through a dark and difficult time - with stops and starts, sometimes 2 steps forward, one step back, trying to remember there's a light at the end of it. It's hard, I know first hand!! It's been quite a few years and I still vividly remember what that was like.

I wish you continued healing through your challenges and whatever you're processing right now.