Oh Uny I felt so bad reading what you have been through. Yes, I agree with others on here that YOU and Rocky come first! Leave the forum the way it is for the rest of the year if you have to! The "past" posts that are archived on here that you have made is already fantastic, informative reading that can answer most peoples questions anyways!
I just am glad you found the source of your depression/sickness. You truly have a calling but not at the expense of you and Rocky! You take care of yourself's and when you are ready we will be waiting eagerly for your teaching! Sending you prayers!