Wanting to know the truth and have the exact answers - and now!!!!

I was thinking about Precious tonight with all that is happening on curezone. I wanted to know how she died, who killed her and why this happened. I wanted to bury her in piece and I wanted to tell her how much I loved her.

What I never thought of doing was cussing at my neighbors, killing all the people around me and talking bad to my friends. I only wanted Precious and I wanted her home.

I searched long and wide for Precious and could not find her and I prayed and prayed for Allah to bring her home but he did not.

I even saw where someone said others had bad bedside manners and had radical religious beliefs, I can't imagine who that is but I would never backbite my neighbors anyway. I saw a lot of unhappy people and I wondered seriously if ML was here and he saw all of this would he be happy. I think not.

Sometimes we just have to bury the dead and live with what Allah has decided. Well I did find Precious just as I prayed but she was dead and had been dead for many weeks. She was eaten so much by worms that there was not much left to her but I did bury her. I wrapped her in a blanket just like I wanted and I said good-bye to my best friend.

I go talk to her everyday and tell her how very much I love her. I would think that anyone who truly loved some one would do that. That they would simply talk to the one they missed, not scream at their friends and neighbors.

Tonight, baby was missing and I cried thinking that my lord could not be so cruel as to take both my children away. I was so upset, I had to eat.

sure enough she came home and screamed, "I am hungry." I picked her up and kissed her to death and cried and cried. The prodical child had come home.

I guess in the end God always does what is right and what is fair and if you have any problems, maybe it is better to talk to him than to talk to anyone else.

I am so glad baby is home with me, arn't you???

SARA