can someone plese talk me down off the ledge!!!!

I've been on IF1 and IF2 for 4 days... and I've gained.. 4 pounds... this may not seem like a big deal to some of you.. but to me, This is a much bigger tragedy than you can imagine...

In march I did humacleanse (another Colon Cleanse product) and also gained weight... close to 15 pounds when ll was said and done, which never came back off... At the time, I had been on Dr. Sutter's board, and asked his advise and he basically said that he sees people gain weight when they "do Colon Cleanses when they aren't necessary".. ok... so, I just sort of filed that information...

Then I came here, and Uny told me that Humacleanse wasn't very affective because the psyllium was in capsules that rarely digested fully... ok.. I buy that..

So, now I'm on IF#1 and IF#2... and I'm also gaining at a rapid pace... and this is a very dangerous situation for me... I'm very heavy... to the point where I'm starting to struggle with many things in my life... where exercise is becoming next to impossible to do, even something as simple as putting on my socks and shoes is close to impossible, simply because there is too much fat between my upper body and lower body, and it restricts my movements...

I know you will all ask, right now I am semi-juice fasting... juice only till 6pm.. and then I have one meal a day of fresh veggies, (sometimes lightly steamed.. but more often raw.. ) and a lean protein.. such as fish, or seafood.. and yes.. I am having 3-5 bowel movements a day... and yes.. I'm drinking so much water, I am about to float away...

I was winning the battle of "weight maintainance" before I went on this colon cleanse.. meaning.. I was able to go a couple of weeks without significant weight gain... but this 4 pounds in 4 days is massive...

to me.. my weight is like a cancer... I fight it and fight it, and fight it, and fight it.. and can you imagine, if you had "cancer"... and in 4 days... your cancer grew 4 pounds... can you imagine how you would feel? I feel scared... I feel disappointed... I feel panic... I feel massive depression... I feel like a failure.. I feel like I am again, losing this battle... and, I keep thinking... if I stay on this for 30 days, I may end up gaining 30 pounds! which I won't be able to take off...

I'm seriously on the ledge here... I'm holding on to so much faith here that this is the right thing for me... but, I'm sooo upset and worried... please help me off the ledge.. Tweet