Laurel, it is so wonderful that you are feeling and getting better. I just wanted to share a thought with you. My mother had a baby when she was 42. He was healthy and a joy to our family. My best friend's mother had a healthy baby at the same age. It's not too late to enjoy the wondrous experience of bringing a new child into the world! I know that many people would disagree with my thoughts, but perhaps they will be of some assistance to you.