I need support beeing new at MMS

Hi, I am new at forums (first time user) but I've been lurking a lot ! I am on Miracle-Mineral-Supplement for around 3 weeks now. I believe I have Morgellons. PLEASE do not tell me to go to a doctor. I've had my share of that stuff...did'nt help much. I was up to 14 drops that morning and I knew it was not going to work like the other days... I got nausea and flu symptoms from 9H00 to 12h30 approx. What I evacuated mostly was not something I ate. It was a grey thick glue coming out from my mouth as well as from ''my behind'' (sorry). It was very hard to throw up and my rib cage still hurts from vomiting. I slept for 36 hours with short interruptions only. I feel better now, but I darn know that I am not clear. My body is still itching A LOT which makes me feel so desperate at times.
I got back after two days rest without Miracle-Mineral-Supplement and started again cutting back a few drops. I take 7 drops morning and night. I also add 5 activated drops to a colonics I take around noon time with bicarbonate.
Am I doing ok, is this sort of detox normal...i mean the grey glue... I would appreciate so much any supporting advice. Please help me someone ! Before I went on Miracle-Mineral-Supplement , I did quite a bit of cleaning in my body and NEVER did I see that yurky slimmy goo. I am so impressed. I wish an angel could take my hand right now and drag me out of this bad dream. I had the Morgellons bad sores on my body for 8 years on and off always quenched by a stressful event. Of course no doctor really helped. I am so tired.
Thank you for any help, I hope tomorrow will be better, I just feel like crying.