Depression, an insiders look

I saw an interesting post on depression and thought I would write about it.

This is an extremely personal view of my inner self and my family but I am hoping that this examination into the mind of a once depressed person will help all dealing with this illness. Does this apply to all, no for sure it does not but it just may help someone hurting today.

Depression runs in my family and my sister is a manic depressant. She is on heavy drugs and some stronger than lithium. I have tried over the years to convince her to get off of them but she is a basket case. She goes from doctor to doctor and religion to religion looking for the magic cure. Pain is an awful thing.

My mom so desperately wants to be loved, she clings to people and demands love and doesn't care who she hurts along the way.

So naturally, I was depressed as a child and still have bouts of depression. I have it pretty well taken care of but sure enough some days it creeps up.

You will see me write about hiding in my closet and this is a real scenario. When I was small, I hid in my closet to avoid pain and bad people. There were slants on the door so I could see when the door opened and remained in my room most all the times. I still do that alot. I mean stay in my room alot. At times we end many relationships because we just don't want to deal with people. It is not the people we are avoiding but the pain or expected pain.

It is said a depressed person is a Gemini because of the dual personality. One day they are happy and the next day they are sad. A depressed person will exhibit sudden anger and then sudden remorse. At the time the outburst seems normal and well deserved but then we will think now why did I do that? In the 80's I was prescribed a awful pill called Prozac and it is the worse thing on the market. I took it for many years and I got to the point to where it was doing more damage than good so I flushed it down the toilet and I went into extreme panic attack and barely made it. I was determined that I would survive and I did. It took me around a month to become normal. I never suggest anyone do what I did as it could of been fatal.

We are all told it is not normal to be on drugs but what is the alternative, suicide. I have been successful in taming the beast but at times I just hide. Some days I will pretend that everything is wonderful but inside I am crying.
To deal with a depressed person is difficult and needs alot of patience. I find we are more like a person having an out of body experience. We are able to look down at our body and see us in a normal state when we are anything but normal. Thru years of work, I have achieved what I call success. Depression is an illness and it is not something we did wrong. Know that depressed people are born with this or inherits this problem.

Now there are people who go thru bouts of depression from a series of problems or deaths and this is not what I called a depressed person but a temporary imbalance. A depressed person who someone who deals with this on a regular basis. So frown not on someone who is sick.

Now can we distance ourself from our genes? I believe the only way this can be done is thru diet and exercise. No one talking can help you. I hate these so called goody two shoes who start with the "You have a lot to be thankful for." Daa, like we don't know that. Don't say that, listen to them, because they want to be heard. Be honest with the person. If the depressed person says do I look ugly today, tell them "You have been better before and I know tomorrow you will look even better." Lie to a depressed person and very likely she will go away. She chooses not to argue but to just go away. I remember looking at so many people as they spoke their lies and thinking, "And they think I am crazy." Lol.

What do depressed people think, mostly bad. We remember everything you said bad, every promise you broke and every sad day. We have a brain inbalance and no matter what we try we are depressed.

We are detailed people and we plot our lives to a tee. We are perfectionist and thrive to find happiness. Such as money is not important to me. I was rich before, made over 100K per year and I find being poor is better. I have more time for me and the things I enjoy. Like writing on the forums and my new blog where I can write about everything that comes to my mind. Lol, I guess that is crazy. hahhaah
You will see me giggle alot , almost like a child because we seek pleasure. We don't want to grow up. We want just to find happiness. So my happy forum is a place of safety.

There is hope of course and many remedies. One of the best is ginger pounded with black seed. It relaxes me to almost unconsciousness. Like I have been drugged. Another mild one is anise and mint in a tea. There is much controversial talk about others and they must be experimented with. The problem is when the person is bi-polar that an occasional drink of tea is not enough. There has to be a more thorough study done of what is natural.

As I said, the best remedy is a raw diet. I find when I am eating extremely healthy I am not depressed. Like today after a short walk, I feel great. I look back over the years I lost and remember the times when I was so depressed. I remember the bad times and then I am thankful for the good. This is probably why I became Muslim because it makes me feel safe. Depressed people are scared, so if you have a friend who is depressed, don't lecture them, just listen. They really don't want advice, they just want a friend.

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