Re: Ruddee, I wrote to you as soon as I "Rudy read this from Alan"

Bur Rudy, I use the term you in this post but I do not mean you if you read my latest more detailed thread you might recall that I Stated there that no one reading this testimony has anything to fear

I have had the same dilemma with my NDE there is a lot in it that I have never written or dare to write about. The sort of amalgamation of aspects of my NDE and mystical experience posted on this forum a while ago contains only part of what really happened to me.

I did include the parts about hell and the black evil being like thick tar. But the parts about heaven .love peace beauty are soaked up , but mention dark evil realms and you are shot down in flames.

God is not a little old grandaddy sitting on a rocking chair , saying to the depraved evil reprobates that come before him when they die, you were a naughty little boy Adolf you should not have murdered all those people in death camps

No no we are accountable for what we do in life and for what we don't do. I have stood and looked at a hell that makes the Christian concept of hell look life a teddy bears picnic.

Think about this a person goes to church prayers, reads his bible and talks about god and how much he loves god ans serves god

But in his life outside his religious community, he lies , cheats, steals, murders rapes, commits fraud and is corrupt to the depths of his reprobate soul

Who is his true master God or the Librarian, "THE ONE YOU SERVE IS YOUR MASTER"

You see it is not what we say , but what "we do that matters", the one whose will you do is your master.




I have felt the horror , of ice cold realisation the utter terrifying sinking feeling of a soul knowing that they must abandon all hope the realisation that things will never get better as the begin the recede into the abysmal dark of a lost eternity. The utter hopeless despair and increasing desolation is unspeakable terrifying, the knowing that you can scream out to God forever and ever and he will not reply. God can do anything including forgetting you is the evil place forever, with your own kind, unable to die, "bound by linear time" in body that will never die.

Surrounded by other beings a evil as you or infinitely more evil, . I sort of saw in my mind eye that this place was so unspeakable evil that even God could not look at it. He sort of turned his face away from these despicable entities and thrust them into there to forget them forever , as it slowly began descend and to separate from his light into the infinite dark forever..

Have you ever felt the bone chilling cold fear that you might have got yourself into a corner from which you can never ever escape, I am sure you have not, but I have, as a seemed to be in the mind of a person experiencing what I stated above. I always asked God to explain the enigma of evil and I AM SORRY I DID.

So Rudy do you think I could include this type of thing in my testimony of course in my three dimensional reality. I do not think so. But I encourage to write your NDE in detail if you have not. Keep it there until you get the OK to publish it in the best place you could, the Internet

Regards

Your friend Forever

Alan Tweet