Thank you. . .

Thank you for all your support. I have a very very emotional day yesterday and it was hard. I have a long disagreement with K. about the ending of our relationship and how I have changed now that it is over. It is still very fresh, it has just been 12 days and I am still struggling with, I guess rejection and finding my self worth in it all.

Fasting always makes me emotional, but it is becaus I am releasing alot that I keep inside. It is very hard for me when fasting to take critism, because all of myself is open and exposed. I have no food in my body to deaden my senses and my body is lighter and free-er to feel things when it can not when it is full of food. It is release of fleshy things to be connected to more spiritual things at a whole.

I am sorry if I seemed overly emotional and curt. I didn't mean to. I am hurting and emotional and it is a self defense mechanism to defend and then withdraw. I have a lot of defensive walls in my life, due to my harsh childhood. I always had to defend myself some way and some how. I am trying to break the cycle slowly.

I am still on my fast and I trucking along the best I can. I have been cleaning alot and it helps me with the large amoung of energy I have at the moment.

I will keep on posting if everyone thinks it is a good thing that I do and not a harmful thing.

Thank you again for being such a friend to me. Thank you all. :o)