I read about your fear of death. Death is only a transition. Fear of pain? Absolutely! None of us want a painful death. We all just want to pass quietly in our sleep. There is another side to life. That has been documented by many near death experiences. I have this to say. It really depends on your beliefs, but I believe that God is your creator. He loves you more than you can imagine because he created YOU! He has promised you "eternal life." What form that life may take, who knows? But look forward to it!! MY creator has good stuff planned for me!