You also are most likely not aware of many other issues including NPN...
In addition, I only know what you have told me in a single paragraph about the health of your significant other... so I am not sure that you have had "good food" (hard to do even with purchased "organics"), or exercised "good living"... as far as "good thoughts" are concerned... I question that given the nature of your post... sounds a bit bitter and resentful to me, unless I am misinterpreting it.