Moving on to love

Q. Why did christ come to suffer for our sins and atone for them?

A. I try to limit myself to answering questions about religion that I know from my NDE. I may only be capable of indirectly answering religious questions but within the scope of my NDE, I will do my best;

I met a being who I have thought of as a type of Jesus or as I sometimes say- "Pre-Jesus" in my NDE. I say "Jesus" but that word seems to be too limiting a word for this being. His name is bigger than that... but best friend...attorney...teacher- liaison between Yah(A Being of Light often called God who is love) and a lesser being who many humans fear called God( Who I often call "The Librarian)- I call this lesser aspect of "God" "God" when I ask for things that die. In any case, I came to understand there are higher and lesser aspects of God and this liaison seems to be a bridge between the two.

This being of light, who I sometimes call Pre-Jesus, went beside me in my NDE and showed me around heaven as some sort of "duty" but he was also concerned about my bodies well being on earth... This "duty" my companion took on was secondary to his compassionate nature... These are words that seem to ring true for me when I contemplate a "christ" being. My best friend and attorney seemed to be pretty high up in the infrastructure that is heaven.

The being who walked with me in my NDE first showed me a library in heaven where my edited life review was stored. He showed me how there are all kinds of resources, to learn about whatever we want to learn about, through the lives lived of every living thing that has a spirit or soul...that ever lived.

There is a lesser library too but this lesser library is caught inside the realm of time and space. This is where the Librarian records(unfiltered) our whole life and the lives of every spirit and soul of every thing that has a spirit or soul. I was also shown this library, by the lesser aspect of God right outside the atmosphere, before I returned to my body. This library is where contracts we make before we enter bodies are held with each spirit and soul we will ever meet while time exists... but time will end... when each contract is filled by some spirit or soul... Every contract has, if... then... else... statements, allowing for an infinite amount(less one) of possibilities. When we leave our physical bodies, some people see the story of their lives, with all of their life(unfiltered)... but for some reason I can not fully explain... I was shown the filtered version of my life... that somehow fast forwarded past my failure to follow my A Plan contracts with other spirits and souls. The best I can figure is that I was shown how God who is love loves...and will only see my filtered version of me... me no matter if I am on my A or Z plan.

In this heavenly Library, my own particular life was shown to me again(after my initial life review). It was like a briefing my attorney gave me right before I entered a courtroom-like room that was the place where the most radiant love waited for me. Not only was this super loving being there but there was also a host of lesser beings and a couple of beings that floated in the room but how I know they were there is only from hearing their movements and voices as my sight was directed downward to avoid dying in my body. There were also an untold number of angel like beings that were witnesses of the trial. Back to my life... It was extremely wonderful but I noticed it was pretty short on love for my part. I could tell I was loved beyond anything I could ever have contemplated by this being of light I called "God" in my NDE. This being really didn't feel comfortable with that name "God" but did not correct me. It seems to me that this being didn't appreciate the baggage the name "God" implied.

For me, the "atonement" word is a story that only works within the limitations of religion, so what I now say is only my best attempt to relate my NDE to a "christ" being. This "atonement" thing seems to be a big thing to religion and it probably is but I may see it differently than my religion sees the act.

I met two beings often called "God" in my NDE and they might also be called personalities of "God" (I don't like the lesser aspect of "God" I met later on so these days I mostly direct my daily communication to the higher aspect of God I call love). In any case, I believe this atonement allows a window with the filtered version of my soul between us and the higher aspect of God I call "Yah" , thereby allowing God who is love to see us me and every other being through our souls eyes while we live in a body. Through this window, God who is love only sees our love. Before this "atonement"(this is conjecture again), there was no window to this higher aspect of mankind, except in the rare enlightened person. With this "atonement," every soul( made of light) became visible to God who is love...but only when we are loving, joyful, compassionate and kind... Returning to my body, I realized my life should be filled with loving, joyful, compassionate, and kind moments as this is all that will survive this world.

My companion, who was an orb of light in my NDE, accompanied me on visit to heaven only separated from me when I walked off of the edge of a boxy looking heaven... as I fell back into the dimension of time in my return to my body. I could also say that he(The orb) is my "higher self" because it is impossible for me to separate where this being is in relationship to my soul.

Back to the courtroom...My friend and attorney showed the God who is love my best side and didn't judge me for my weaknesses. The judge only asked if I had learned enough about love.. I judged myself as not having received or given enough love in my life and returned to earth. Anyway, I get communications from this loving energy often in the early morning... I could also call this attorney like being my conscious.

In any case, I now hope when I return to heaven again that I will not judge myself with my same judgment I did in my NDE... By refusing to judge myself... I will not walk out of heaven again... unless I can move on to a body that does no die. I want to move on... I hope I have learned the lessons that will eliminate the need to keep dying and having my heart broken over and over. I am ready for the testing by fire and let anything not love attached to my soul to die...and then move on...

There is a strong pull to want to return to the dimension of time as one's "duty" but there are more wonderful places to go than just a sad and dying earth. I have given permission for my soul to return to an earth if death and dying are eliminated. I have seen this special time for earth in my NDE. A special time for earth...but when it is done... it is time to be a less heavy spiritual being...

"Good Times" make it into heaven that are attached to joy. "Caring" for others makes it. "Helping people for the sake of love" makes it. "Fun" attached to joy makes it. The test ends at the end of time but things are different on the other side... On this side, religious often worry about not doing "sin," but "Yah"(God who is love) is only concerned with what we do related to "love," so we should not attempt to strip away the "sin" from our lives but rather fill our lives up with loving intentions and quit debasing ourselves because we have weeds in our garden... I know I am loved no matter what...and so are you... Every soul that ever does even one loving, joyful, compassionate, or kind act in their whole life is saved to the library in heaven but if we are going to make the most out of our trip into a burning sack of flesh(hell)... we should be more loving, joyful, compassionate, and kind.

I know this was a message shown through the lens of my religious experience and is not the only way to perceive what I saw in my NDE. Yah who is love or whatever you want to call love loves every act of love and it is forever added to what love is... It is tempting to keep adding those moments through life... after life... after life... but I don't like this playground... There is just as much to learn beyond space and time that doesn't involve death and dying... I hope I am finished with death... I am so ready to move on beyond the limitations of death and dying to love... Tweet