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hey everyone, anyone. I am a 19 yr old college student who is scared out of her mind. I recently got a pap smear and was informed that it came back with abnormal cells. I went in for the colposcopy and biopsy, scared as hell. I have to wait 2 weeks to call and get the results. My gyno wrote down a list of words for me to become aquainted with by looking them up on WebMD. Looking up dysplasia has had me in tears since finding out it could be the 2nd step in the cycle of cervical cancer and how smokers have a 60% increase in cancer. About a millions things are running through my mind as to my future crumbling away. The worst feeling is knowing I did this to myself because of the stupid mistakes I made regarding my sexual activity growing up. I dont know if anyone relates to my age and circumstance here, I just needed to get somethings out.