Day 16 and still going strong on my fast.

I have been doing well with my fast. I am now on my 16th day! I am doing so well. If I have gotten this far in my fast, it really just gets easier from day to day. Some days I get more tired then others since I work two jobs and sometimes just sitting at my computer is such a chore, so I haven't been online a lot at all.

My sleep schedule was off due to me having a migraine on Sunday so I slept a lot during the day and unfortunately was up a bit late that night. As well as I was up late last night reading until about 1:30 a.m.

I walked 112% of my goal which is 5.55 miles on Monday and on Tuesday I walked 158% of my goal which is 7.56 miles. Wednesday I walked 102% of my goal which was 4. miles and something. I have been doing a lot of walking to relax me since my nerves have been a little bit frayed at work. But the funny thing is I still remain calm. If I do get emotional like I did on Sunday, it is much more intense then normal.

I get dizzy a bit if I have to do to much lifting or bending. I have been trying to drink a bit more water when I feel ill. I have noticed if my ketones get to 160 mg, I feel very ill but if keep them at around 80 mg, I feel much better then I was a couple days ago.

It is detoxing time for me. My tongue wasn't coated too much this morning and I looked at my back it it is really breaking out now. I was planning on going to the beach on Saturday, but it looks like now I will have to wear a small shirt to cover up my top half so I won't be embarrassed of the blemishes on my back. I usually fast in the winter time, so I never have to worry about that happening since I love to swim in the summer and I have two piece bathing suits. I just hope I don't break out on my face anywhere before Sunday! That would be horrible for me. I thought that swimming is a low impact exercise that will help me tone my body as well as I will enjoy it so much. LOL

I feel good when I am resting and relaxed. I did an enema a couple days ago and I was surprised that I had anything left in my body after so long. I immediately felt much better then I did and I will try to do that once in a while to make sure that I am cleaning out all the horrible stuff that might still be sticking around.

My skins looks clear and bright and my fingers look so delicate

My weight has settled at 115 lbs, which is good and my legs and arms look toned, but my middle looks horrible. Saggy with fat deposits. Yuck, yuck, yuck!! I have been exercising a bit to help tone my body a bit when I can. Mostly I have been thinking, sharing things with God and praying.

It was very hard last night. My neighbor's father cooks and she was nice and brought me over a plate of food last night. I said “What is this for?” She said “Nothing, we just thought you might enjoy it.” I told her thank you and placed it briefly in my microwave and went over to visit for a bit. When I got back home, it smelled so good. Fried potatoes, steak, mac and cheese and a no bake cookie! A part of me wanted to eat it, but I careful put the food in a freezable container and placed it in my freezer so that I could eat it much later after my fast and everything. It really smelled so very good, but I stuck with it. I am not hungry, but I do miss the socializing a person does when one does eat. The most of all, I miss cooking for myself. I might be single and work two jobs, but I still enjoy cooking good food to eat when I do. I really miss salads. I think that is my body telling me that I want only healthy, healthy foods. LOL

I have a kind of date on Sunday with Person B. We are going to go walk in the park, enjoy nature and I have planned a picnic, which I will not be eating at. I know it will be strange for him, but I will explain and hopefully he will understand. He doesn't know about this, so I hope he will still enjoy the food that I have purchased for him to eat. I am going to some sandwich meat, cheese, potato salad, fruit salad, grapes, chips, those small kinds of things for him to eat while we talk. I am quite enjoying doing this since he doesn't know about it yet. He said that we could walk in the park or go out to eat or as he would enjoy, both! Normally I would prepared salads and other summer food myself, but I can't trust myself since I would have to taste test to see if it tasted ok. I am planning on having some water as well as some fresh veggie juice for me so I can keep my energy up as well as enjoy myself as well.

I haven't heard from Person B. It really is breaking my heart. He called me on the 5th of July but I missed his call. I try his number and it is still disconnected. I just wonder if he had it turned back on and changed the number. I know I should just give up on him, but he gave up on me first. It has been 9 weeks since he dumped me, yet wanted me to get a place with him in June after dumping me in May. Deep down in my heart I still love him so very much, but it is so hard to hang on when I get nothing in return, and, Person B is waiting as patiently as he can so he can spend some time with me. He wants to take me to the zoo, and take walks in the park, go to church together, etc., yet I feel a hollowness that just echoes in my soul where Person A. used to be.

I think I am going to call my dad this Saturday. Person B told me that no matter how hard it might be for me, does not God always walk toward us when we are far away. I should try to do that same no matter that my father has walked away from me. I should call even if it is something simple like telling him, I just wanted to call because I was thinking about the time we went fishing together when I was younger. I think I will keep it short and sweet. Just as first and maybe I might call again in 2 weeks.

I am still praying to God alot about guidance and just laying things before Him to take care of. I not only need cleaned physically with my fast, but renewed and refreshed by God mentally as well. I am enjoying my fast even though some days I feel weak and others I have tons of energy. I feel free and more in touch with God at times, when I take the time and be still. :o)