SO SORRY about what's going on in your life ~ I do not have that problem but others. It's ok to feel depressed or down but you WILL find solutions. Thank God for the web and for others honest enough to share their fears and successes.
This is just a note of encouragement, so be of good cheer.
The incredible part of the human is the belief in hope. It's programmed into our DNA and although I've been without it on many occasions trying just to get through the next minute, I have grown stronger and SO WILL YOU!
Don't worry AND don't put a time restriction on what you want to happen since you're not in control at the moment and that's ok. NOBODY ever does have total control of anything! And that's okay too.
...however, what you DO have control over are your reactions and that is a choice! Be a soldier by being afraid but fight -! EVEN if it's taking mini baby steps and falling back 7 then going forward 2. I call it *failing forward* if you give up for the next hour fight the following hour.
If you take this attitued YOU WILL FIND SUCCESS however that resolves. Life's a journey and some of the unfortunate detours can lead to some beautiful discoveries and layers of life you never knew about.
the worst part of this kind of situation is it can be worsened