in my case i was thinking the same things you are 3 years ago. i only found this forum 3 months ago. i do not wish anyone my life right now. i am facing a possible divorce due to an affair i just found out my husband is having. i almost cannot blame him, because of my so called post partum Depression that has lasted for the last 3 1/2 years. i was not the wife and mother i could have been. my side effects have been awful. my family has missed out on me, a woman who used to be so calm cool and collected who has a love for life. i actually told my husband a half an hour ago that if he truly loves her that i will step aside because i understand that i have not been available to him emotionally or physically because of my side effects. i write this from my heart because i hope and pray no family has to go through this. please, please listen to your husband, you will be glad you did. i just got my mirena out yesterday morning. i cannot believe the feeling of calmness i have. i feel like i have love for myself and my family. i know not everyone reacts the same to mirena but this is part of my story that needed to be told. i wish i had been warned of potential side effects. i did not know possibly losing my husband, my family, my dreams, and potentially my death. i almost attempted suicide due to my side effects two weeks ago. i finally have insurance , mirena was lost, now its out because the doctor would not take the time to find my mirena the first time. i actually feel like i can love myself for the first time in 3 1/2 years. please read what i have written because this could be you or someone you know in the future.