some thoughts vs others

why is it that some things I get so hyped up,make plans,obsess over,say i am going to do it,going to do it and going to do it but nothing ever manifests or comes about?

but the things I am not so excited about but end up doing end up being the most
rewarding and the most valuable? but these are the things I don't really think about,
or I do initially but those thoughts get replaced by actions and reality and I never
think about it again lol.This includes working out,boxing,drag racing at the drag strip,fixing up my car etc.

Wouldn't the LOA be working towards the one I obsess over and think about most??

the things I end up doing,i never think about or not really after the initial thoughts.
The things I never end up doing are the ones I think about the most,BUT the things I ended up doing I did have alot of thoughts involved at first but they disappeared in place of taking action..i no longer think about it,because I am living it..make sense??

why is that?

I just don't think it's that cut and dry..I used to have alot of horrible thoughts
and feelings against my parents but after time it dissipated,should'nt LOA work
in conjunction with those negative thoughts being that we attract things even if they are negative? the process works the same manner regardless? if so,then should'nt i have just disowned my folks a long time ago? i love them no doubt and we have had bad times but i also had alot of anger and bs directed towards them but it didn't go anywhere once it left.

why is that?

I also HATED girls for the longest time.These negative thoughts feelings no doubt
created emotional and mental barriers in myself and others but it's not exactly as
powerful as how some say LOA works..maybe sub-consciously I really don't hate them that much.Some people,the people with 'real' hate..end up killing people.

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