Parents Shocked!!

I've had my micrographs and notes for some time now. I've been wanting to inform family members of my situation but because of previous situations over the years of being ill I have felt it was better to not say anything more because I was fighting a losing battle. Until I had proof, I was in a corner with regards to family.

Well they saw my micrographs for the first time. (Due to being unwell I have been unable to make the long trip).

It has been a very difficult situation to handle for me because my family have NEVER believed I've had parasites and "other stuff" going on simply because they believed all that was done by my GP and hospital proved that this was the case. I had to explain why these tests were wrong and why they could never be relied upon. I explained to them even AFTER my GP/hospital tests I still KNEW I had parasite(s) and other stuff going on. And I was right! Always believe in yourself no matter what anyone tells you, and that includes family.

My family were, put simply, in SHOCK. I explained to them first and foremost how badly I have felt because of them not believing me. It was an emotional time for me because I felt a weight had been lifted. First of all I told them I never understood why they never believed me when I said I had parasite issues etc. I told them I never understood why anyone could ever say 100% it wasn't when not one of my family had ever read anything on parasites or any other related issue. If they had bothered to read my list of symptoms they may even have had an idea! I made a HUGE point on this. I told them that this affected me in a bad way, I withdrew into myself, I felt I had noone to talk to. Not only was I fighting HUGE problems but I had a family who disbelieved me and point blank, wouldn't listen. I got tired of the "silences" on the telephone and knew from then on I had to get answers before I resurrected any of this with them.

They asked about my GP tests re: stool, hospital re: endoscopy, colonoscopy etc. Why had nothing showed up (apart from h-pylori bug). I told them about the articles I've read, these tests can be a waste of time when dealing with parasite issues, (unless your dealing with big worms that can be seen). They couldn't believe that through all the GP and hospital tests nothing came close to what they were looking at.

I explained a bit about the parasites being masters of disguise and evading almost anything you take unless you know what you are up against. I explained the migrating to other parts of the body (they didn't even know this, they had heard of worms before but thought they just lived in the digestive tract!). Isn't nearly 5 years proof at how difficult they are to eradicate. That's how long I've been fighting this and I told them that. I haven't spoken to them about my situation for a long time and I got the impression they thought all was well. I explained if you don't ask, how do you know!! I told them why I never spoke to them about it, they never listened. I did mention after I got my results from Apxr that I have something to show them. But the time would have to be right. It was my turn.

I told them that ALL the practitioners/tests I had done BEFORE RHRPlus had failed because they didn't know where to start, they didn't carry out the correct tests etc. I was fighting things blindly. I could tell it was hard for them to take all this in but they had to know. I can sort of understand why this was hard for them, but not half as hard for me. They know nothing about infections such as mine, so I understood from their point of view. They had plenty of opportunity before to read up on some of the facts but I think because they didn't believe me they didn't think there was any point! I bet they wish they had now.

All of this was their reaction BEFORE they even viewed my micrographs done by Apxr, and read his NOTES!!). I was wondering how they were going to take it!

Over the years I've gone into great detail about my symptoms and how ill I've been, including the hospital visit where I was rushed by ambulance and had every test going, including heart echo, also blood tests to check for heart attack! I even had the test where they put the dye through to check your heart. I was even put on a treadmill! And yet, they found nothing. (My heart symptoms are related to my health issues and they are the scariest, although they have calmed down somewhat).

I also explained the many occasions where I could have picked up the "dog" worm(s) that are going on. Apxr mentions this in his notes. I don't own a dog, never have, never will and I have said plenty of times before that I knew something related to this. I told my family this before but it fell on deaf ears. I know where the dog worm(s) come in, that I'm sure of.

They didn't even KNOW what a micrograph was, until I showed them. And the clarity of them. They couldn't get over it. They asked many questions but I told them they need to take time to go through the micrographs and read Apxr's notes that pertain to them. Only THEN WILL I BE PREPARED TO ANSWER THEIR QUESTIONS. I want to give them something to think about. This is something I don't want just a couple of hours to be looked at. I want them to know my suffering over the last (nearly) 5 years. It's only fair, I think. I'm sure my graphic pictures and notes will give them an idea that what I'm going through has been anything BUT pleasant. It has been easy for my family to dismiss all this. I always say unless you're actually experiencing what someone is going through, you'll never know what they are experiencing. This is SO TRUE. There were times when I even thought they were telling me how I should feel!

My family clearly don't know anything with regards to parasites and what they can do to one's health. Perhaps this will give them the kick up the backside they need. I'm not sure. They haven't asked "are any of these infections/infestations transmittable" but that question WILL come, I don't doubt it one bit. Once the "shock" of it all sinks in perhaps they may think about their own health. I'm "working" on my husband having at least even a stool sample test done but this is proving difficult. Unless someone has symptoms they don't think they need testing? I'm trying to alter his perception, and my other family members too. (They may not want to come near me after viewing the pics!).

I want my family to view the pictures and notes again at their "leisure" (bet they can't put them down!!). I had to explain also not only am I dealing with HUGE health issues but I had the uncalled for behaviour of family who didn't believe me. It was almost to the point of ignorance. I told them how upset I was when I overheard one of them saying I was depressed a few months ago when one of them made a call to the hospital! I'll never get over that. It still hurts to this day. I can never begin to explain the feeling of isolation and lonliness. At times it was unbearable. You're almost made to feel an outcast.

I didn't want an extravaganza, whereby I was surrounded by ALL the family so it was mainly between my parents (and sister) but I've told them "feel free to pass them round for all to see". You can appreciate, even though this was with family, it was still very difficult for me. I could see how uncomfortable it was for them but they had to know. Not only have I been concerned for my own health, I've worried about theirs too. To be honest, at times, I'd say to myself, "to hell with it", I had to put myself first, if they weren't prepared to listen, TOUGH.

I think it will have a huge impact and I have a lot of "sorries" coming my way. I may sound "up myself" but after what I've been through, I think I'm more than entitled to have my say. It's been a long time coming.

I feel great now, I feel a huge weight has been lifted.

So, until the next instalment..... The questions from my family will come. This is not something where I just wanted to pass to them to look over in an afternoon. Until I next see them, in a couple of weeks, I'm sure they'll have had time enough to have digested what's REALLY been going on with regards to my health.

ONCE AGAIN A HUGE THANK YOU TO APXR AND RHRPLUS.

This was a HEALING experience and a beginning to mending broken hearts.

70428. Tweet