trust your gut :-) it will let you know if you make a mistake.
or as Obi-Wan stated to Luke... "trust your feelings".
We do not "need" to have a clear explanation for absolutely everything... reaching for a clear explanation for "everything", trying to reason why, or make sense of things that don't is the foundation of our undoing.
Let the controversy go... and trust yourself. If you want to live, I mean really live, be and stay healthy, you will figure it out... with, or without the help of others.