i hate to say this but it all comes down to separation from the world . People must realise that the worse things they go through here makes you reach and pay attention to god. I hate this just as much as anyone but thats how it is , He is jealous and will put you in possitions to absolutly hate this world. i have tried my very best in this life to become more than just a useless person and to regain my health but you see it never gets better and never will , if it did why would i care about going to heaven, again I hate this and wish i could just be happy and healthy but it wont happen and if it did then other terible things would happen. It would always be better to die and go to paradise but that is not for sure either as many are very decieved and end up haveing to do life over agian and again. Sucks to be us ...