dislocated jaw for 6 or 7 years

it was about the time i was 17 years old...i am 23 now...I used to crack my jaw...i used to pop my jaw with the palm of my hand while i had braces on to "fix" my underbite
when in fact i made the mistake of destroying myself in this life...I used to be put down for having a funny bite and my parents used to say to me jokingly someone needs to pop you in the mouth.....they were joking but i did not know what i did was dislocate my jaw at the time out of frustration with my bite..I just thought i was making it go in more...THinking back after doing this i was in fight or flight response for literally the past 6 years...Starting at 17 i was becoming almost delusional after this happened...I was nausiated all day I had palpatations in my head a severe migraine on the right side 24/7 i thought i just had anxiety issues...My bite was laterally misplaced...It did not align with the top part of my mouth...I felt like i was dying...I somehow got into a decent college and that is where i started taking prescriptions drugs to deal with the anxiety attacks...I know for a fact now my distorted thinking was caused by my dislocated jaw but at the time i had no clear reason with the 24/7 pain in my head with my jaw but subconsiously i thought they had to be related but how?..I just knew something was messed up in me...There was no clicking at all no cracking in my joint i never did any damage i thought i would have realized it wouldn't I?...Just 24/7 headaches..I started to take more and more drugs b/c the anxiety would not be calmed...I went from max dose of paxil to max dose of zoloft...I even had a bout of cocktails with benzos and even an anti-psychotic drug called risperdal...That is where i ultimately became impotent...My sex drive no longer worked...I thought it was from the pain and thought i was going to die anyway but after reading about the drug i know it was from the drug...A year ago November 2006 to be precise just at the verge of suicide i figured out my problem was my bite from a website i was reading about how the top and bottom need to be alighned...I cracked it with all my force and heard a pop...Tons of blood rushed to the left side of my head and my arm went numb for a week...I used to have twitches in the fingers of that arm too from my jaw...My eyes became similiar in size...I cold turkeyed the drugs i was taking at the time never to go back on them again after taking them non stop for 3 and a half years...My psychiatrist couldn't believe it...I went to a surgeon after this thought my life was saved...He said he was going to do invasive surgery where he would correct my underbite after seeing mri showed degenerative Arthritis on the top and bottom joints of the right side...I went to another surgeon said not to do it if there is not significant pain...I never got it done...What i do need done is to fix the significant pain on the right side of my face still it progressively has gotton worse and contstantly clicks and blood flow is messed up i can tell..But i don't want invasive sugery its bs...I feel like my whole right side of my body is in fight or flight again and there is tremendous pain all througout have IBS breathing problems...I am currently seeing an orthosurgeon who said if worse comes to worse i need arthroscopy...I feel like a living wreck right now...I missed out on pleasure just 24/7 pain for the past 6 or 7 years...And the drugs screwed up my sex life forever...i feel like there is no point of living now...The reason i am sharing this is to say i know for a fact that anxiety problems are rooted in the TMJ joint...It screws with emotions...Makes one see things not as they are b/c of the over-excitation of the nerves that are in the joint...Probably causes adrenaline overload and over-taxes the body...All the neurotransmitters over-fire and in time the body just starts to lose it..just wish i knew this all before when i was 17...Now i am trying to heal but never heard of anyone having a dislocated jaw for so long...The worse part is the drugs causing the sexual dysfunction after discontinuance on top of the pain... Tweet