How are things now? When I tried to send healing and energy to Ismay, I got a good sense of her. She has a great personality!! I can tell you she is one plucky bird, full of humour. She's got a dry sense of humour and really is quite a stubborn bird.
She said "I like my freedom better than my security" ... I'm not sure if that was about her or about you ... but I wanted to throw a meditation your way ... are you doing certain things to feel secure, when in reality you want to do something else (more freeing) but have been afraid to? Think on it. Maybe there was something for you here. I know our animal friends can reflect back to us somethings we don't want to look at.