well, i had to work at it ... see the kind of hoops you made me jump through?! argh
anyway, the baby is/was a pure miracle ... we had already lost six (miscarriages and tubal pregnancy) ... they completely removed one ovary and a fallopian tube (opposite sides of each other) ... and my pelvic region was crushed in a car wreck (was thrown from the vehicle and it flipped and landed on me) ... i was told no way in the world I would get pregnant again (let alone be able to support a growing uterus) ... i spent the last three months in the hospital to monitor her progress, and they took her six weeks early ... so anyway, yes sir, she was a BIG surprise :)