A letter to Shaman

Have you ever seen the movie called, "Grave of the Fireflies" ? ...
I don't want to be a warrior any more...
This is why I do not fly...

The average NDE'er only sees love Shaman... That was not my experience... On my way back to my body...I witnessed the whole history and future of the world...ending in its destruction...but in the last age of men...the world grew brighter...but their were birth pains my friend... I feel that pain... I try to relieve a little bit of that pain by helping strangers... I lighten their load sometimes and they lighten mine in return... It is not very valuable to the world... but I found goodwill is as good as gold on the other side...

I was a warrior Shaman. I was willing to kill...for the gift of flying airplanes... but today...
I want to fly again...Every teacher needs their summer's off... I don't want to be a warrior any more...but I do want to fly...so the world will offer me gifts again... Perhaps... when I find a kinder and more gentle way to fly...
in this world...the world will recognize me...and she will remember me... We can share our moments of joy and moments of pain....and perhaps she will love me anyway...