I think I have a problem. I'm not sure where to start.

I have been with my husband for about 25 years. He is depressed. It's been especially hard the last 15 years.

For awhile, I thought that possibly my husband might has Aspergers Syndrome, which is high functioning autism. These people tend to be very intelligent, but devoid of feeling emotion. Almost like Mr. Spock. He has a hard time looking people in the eyes, and seems to have a hard time discerning peoples emotions. It's classic.

He's been on Prozac for many years (about 12). I have done everything. I got him to a doctor, I have forced him to go to talk therapy which he absolutely loathes, and has stopped very soon after he starts. I have gotten him to do a number of cleanses and healthy alternatives, eating, supplementations, juicing, the whole nine yards. I got him to go back to school to get a better job, even though I don't think his heart is in it. He has zero motivation, has no friends, does not want a social life and does whatever I tell him to do, just like a robot. And he does it all dutifully.

He tells me he loves me, and it is very believable. We have a son, and he expresses and shows love to him. We have animals, and he expresses and shows love to them also.

It's been very hard being with this man. He does not have highs and lows. He is very very quiet. He never makes any plans to do anything. It's almost like living with nobody.

He is very intelligent, and funny when he wants to be. We do have a sex life, which is OK. He is not abusive towards me at all.

Tonight he told me that he feels nothing. He feels nothing for me, nor our child. He doesn't care about his job, or school, or anything. He just shrugged it off when I asked him if he was lying. He said he was telling me the truth.

He would never leave me, mostly because I'm safe, and his family is a habit. He knows I would not leave him. But I'm left wondering about this whole thing.

I don't know what kind of support I'm asking for. I'm very confused. I feel like I'm living with an empty shell, pretending to be a human being, and playing the part....but deep down there is nothing. If I am to believe him, there is nothing there. He said he doesn't care what happens to either of us, but he plays the part, and goes through the motions, just like society has dictated he be like.

God, this sucks so much. I feel distraught. I don't know how to handle this, and I don't know whether we should stay together or if I should live with this for the rest of my life. I'm not particularly unhappy, but there is not a lot of joy, but then again it's not sad. We don't fight very much, and sort of live this parallel life inhabiting the same space. He's very very quiet. More of a presence than a participant.

I'm middle aged (in my 50's). I can't even imagine, after 25 years, living alone without him. I'm very outgoing, a survivor and strong. What would possibly happen to this man should I leave? It might force him to get his act together and get a life if I'm not there to lean on. Or he could sink into a bottomless abyss and lose it completely. I have no idea what would happen.

What am I asking of all of you? I don't know. I don't even know what my ulterior motive is in writing this, and I don't even have a clue what I'd hope people will say for me to do. I guess I'm just throwing this out into the air to see what happens.

Thank you for listening. I always appreciate the support of these people at curezone.